[ He isn't even going to entertain that stupid question. There's nothing interesting about that small back of his. When faced, Joonghyuk doesn't wear the same scowl he usually does.
His expression is neutral, his sharp gaze softened... His tone, however, stayed leveled as it always does. ]
Would it have been better if I never showed up?
[ Not this room, but here in Kenos. If he didn't show up in Horos at all—if they never reunited. Would it put Dokja at ease? Would he be happier? Would he feel less guilt? Could he somehow find his place here, among these strangers? Could he find happiness in this strange land?
Joonghyuk wonders if his wish to return Dokja home is just a heavy and unwanted burden, troublesome and obstinate. No, he knows it is and he never cared. In earnest, he is content with it weighing on Dokja... Love never had to be beautiful, light, and warm. Love can be suffocating, relentless, and selfish. It can threaten to sink and drown.
But still. Joonghyuk isn't heartless. He learned how to be human again thanks to one man and so he considers Dokja's feelings with care. Months have passed and they haven't talked despite the promise, enough time for Joonghyuk to reflect and mull. ]
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His expression is neutral, his sharp gaze softened... His tone, however, stayed leveled as it always does. ]
Would it have been better if I never showed up?
[ Not this room, but here in Kenos. If he didn't show up in Horos at all—if they never reunited. Would it put Dokja at ease? Would he be happier? Would he feel less guilt? Could he somehow find his place here, among these strangers? Could he find happiness in this strange land?
Joonghyuk wonders if his wish to return Dokja home is just a heavy and unwanted burden, troublesome and obstinate. No, he knows it is and he never cared. In earnest, he is content with it weighing on Dokja... Love never had to be beautiful, light, and warm. Love can be suffocating, relentless, and selfish. It can threaten to sink and drown.
But still. Joonghyuk isn't heartless. He learned how to be human again thanks to one man and so he considers Dokja's feelings with care. Months have passed and they haven't talked despite the promise, enough time for Joonghyuk to reflect and mull. ]