[ ironic that dokja has now learned to look, when cassian least wants to be seen. cassian andor is a spy; and even before that, for years, he was a thief and a con artist and a hidden last survivor of a doomed planet. he has skirted to the shadows since before he was 10, because to be noticed was to be in danger. to be seen has nearly always been synonymous to death, for him, if not pain. and so there is a part of him that wishes dokja wouldn't turn and face him, look at him, now. he'd wish that all the more if he had any idea that dokja were imagining ways this could've been easier for cassian.
it shouldn't be easy. that's the point, isn't it? no one decent would find a thing like this easy, or doable. just the thought should be reprehensible. but they stand here now, and i meant what i said, and cassian thinks,
well. he thinks, so did i.
so his hand finds his blaster and he draws, pointing it at dokja. that isn't the last request he'd expected, but maybe he should have. no one wants to suffer. even cassian had been granted the grace of a quick death on scarif, when his broken body would've lingered and faded painfully. he breathes out, and he nods, visibly, meeting dokja's eyes. and then he fires, a flash of red light from the plasma bolt.
his aim is true. it always is. it's not until after, that his hands start shaking. ]
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it shouldn't be easy. that's the point, isn't it? no one decent would find a thing like this easy, or doable. just the thought should be reprehensible. but they stand here now, and i meant what i said, and cassian thinks,
well. he thinks, so did i.
so his hand finds his blaster and he draws, pointing it at dokja. that isn't the last request he'd expected, but maybe he should have. no one wants to suffer. even cassian had been granted the grace of a quick death on scarif, when his broken body would've lingered and faded painfully. he breathes out, and he nods, visibly, meeting dokja's eyes. and then he fires, a flash of red light from the plasma bolt.
his aim is true. it always is. it's not until after, that his hands start shaking. ]