[ it's almost difficult to hear Dokja over the sound of her own heartbeat thundering in her ears, but his calm and straightforward manner helps, keeps the words from being distorted by her fear into anything else. recognising that there is no threat to race ahead of, her mind slows down too, and she can actually think again.
what Dokja says is—effective. comfort wouldn't put Ruby at ease, and having her reaction questioned is always the worst, no matter how well-meaning. someone taking the responsibility on themself feels like they're removing a live bomb from her hands. in an effort to get her body to relax, she closes her eyes – she doesn't want to see judgement in Dokja's expression – takes a quick, sharp breath and then releases it in a slow exhale: huuu.
her eyes blink open, her face open and friendly as though nothing had happened. ]
Sorry. [ she smiles easily. ] Ahaha, how embarrassing. When I could feel that it didn't seem to be working, I thought I must have been doing something wrong.
[ Ugh. You're right, you should have just told me, you jerk! Then I wouldn't have been so scared! ]
Is there—something else I can do to help? I can't just make you do all this for me and not give you anything in return...
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[ it's almost difficult to hear Dokja over the sound of her own heartbeat thundering in her ears, but his calm and straightforward manner helps, keeps the words from being distorted by her fear into anything else. recognising that there is no threat to race ahead of, her mind slows down too, and she can actually think again.
what Dokja says is—effective. comfort wouldn't put Ruby at ease, and having her reaction questioned is always the worst, no matter how well-meaning. someone taking the responsibility on themself feels like they're removing a live bomb from her hands. in an effort to get her body to relax, she closes her eyes – she doesn't want to see judgement in Dokja's expression – takes a quick, sharp breath and then releases it in a slow exhale: huuu.
her eyes blink open, her face open and friendly as though nothing had happened. ]
Sorry. [ she smiles easily. ] Ahaha, how embarrassing. When I could feel that it didn't seem to be working, I thought I must have been doing something wrong.
[ Ugh. You're right, you should have just told me, you jerk! Then I wouldn't have been so scared! ]
Is there—something else I can do to help? I can't just make you do all this for me and not give you anything in return...