[ With everything that he's done, he deserves the harsh response. He deserves more than that, really, so he quietly accepts what has to be said.
Even now, when he should be trying to make amends, his heart's just not fully in it. Yes, he feels awful. Yes, he fucked up. Yes, there are things he would have done differently if he could go back.
But he would go back.
It's hard not to be as apathetic and slightly resentful as he feels when he thinks back on the civilians who had witnessed the entire situation. They'd just been eyes on him, whispering mouths, pointing fingers, and he'd thought nothing but the worst of them at the time. Leave it to someone like Ernesto to care for complete strangers... Dokja doesn't have it in him to do the same.
He can, however, heed the request of someone he likes. ]
Alright.
[ For Ernesto's sake, then. That much he can do. ]
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Even now, when he should be trying to make amends, his heart's just not fully in it. Yes, he feels awful. Yes, he fucked up. Yes, there are things he would have done differently if he could go back.
But he would go back.
It's hard not to be as apathetic and slightly resentful as he feels when he thinks back on the civilians who had witnessed the entire situation. They'd just been eyes on him, whispering mouths, pointing fingers, and he'd thought nothing but the worst of them at the time. Leave it to someone like Ernesto to care for complete strangers... Dokja doesn't have it in him to do the same.
He can, however, heed the request of someone he likes. ]
Alright.
[ For Ernesto's sake, then. That much he can do. ]
I'm going to keep my head down for a while.