Because Dokja's sick of being treated kindly. Because he has to hear what he needs to hear, and the only person who can do that is some fucked up kid he's fed pieces of himself to. Gen who knows how to break his mind and Dokja who goes looking for it at every chance.
It's punishment.
And so there's a ripple of self-loathing that passes through their connection, and Dokja does nothing to stop it. He's barely a person, barely half of who he'd once been, and how can he explain that? How does he explain that every breath he draws feels like he's suffocating, and that he only manages to fall asleep once he's exhausted himself to the point of losing consciousness? That he wakes up to nightmares every single time? To tears pouring out of his eyes and ragged screams that he muffles behind his hands?
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Because Dokja's sick of being treated kindly. Because he has to hear what he needs to hear, and the only person who can do that is some fucked up kid he's fed pieces of himself to. Gen who knows how to break his mind and Dokja who goes looking for it at every chance.
It's punishment.
And so there's a ripple of self-loathing that passes through their connection, and Dokja does nothing to stop it. He's barely a person, barely half of who he'd once been, and how can he explain that? How does he explain that every breath he draws feels like he's suffocating, and that he only manages to fall asleep once he's exhausted himself to the point of losing consciousness? That he wakes up to nightmares every single time? To tears pouring out of his eyes and ragged screams that he muffles behind his hands?
He can't. ]
... He has something that belongs to me.